Day 15

Today I did a Yoga workout to stretch and lengthen my muscles. Boy did it feel good!!! I didn't want to stop! I love the way it feels to stretch, and I'm pretty flexible. On the other hand, I'm frusterated as heck!!! For one whole week, I restricted my calorie intake to 1300 a day. I haven't broke that, plus I'm exercising. I haven't lost a pound!! >:( I can feel my muscles are stronger, but the fat wont budge!!!! Am I doomed to be fat or something!?!? My clothes don't really fit me any more loosly. It also frusterates me because it's a sin to be fat! I don't want to be glutenous anymore!!!! What am I doing wrong? Or what is wrong with me!?!? I can not, and will not starve myself. I keep thinking of trying Hydroxy cut, but not sure about it still. I'm sooooo angry!

Day 14

Today was a little harder to exercise. I think it's because of how I'm feeling, which isn't so well. I did do my Pilate's though, and my muscles felt tense. Tomorrow I am going to do Yoga instead. Stretch everything out and relax. Then on Monday I will try an aerobics video. I keep thinking of trying some kind of diet pill. I just don't want one with side effects. I'm thinking about it still. I need to lay down, so I'll write tomorrow.

Day 13

I did not feel well at all today. Last night I was really ill, with stomach flu like symptoms. It's because of my monthly visitor, which visited me today, lol! I don't feel well today either, but I kept thinking to myself, "I am not ill, it's just my period, so I will exercise anyways, since exercise is suppossed to help" I did exercise, and I felt better afterwards for a while. Then I became ill again. I finished my text book today, and now I have a research project to do tomorrow. Then I'll get more work. Sierra goes back to school on Monday. I know that will cut into my time greatly. I wont give up though, I wont! I can do this!

Day 12

Today I mastered the Teaser!!!! I was able to do it without faltering, and get from a laying flat position, up to the teaser position without having to sit up first! I'm so glad I accomplished that move! I feel that I will be ready to start aerobics on Monday, February 2nd. I feel my posture improving and I can move freer and walk easier. It feels so good to be stronger, and I'm not stopping! I found this site, http://caloriecount.about.com You can look up how many calories are burned in an activity, what your BMI is, and how many calories you need to take in a day to loose weight, and how long it will take you to reach your goal weight. I wont reach mine until the end of September. Even though that doesn't sound bad, I am very impatient and don't want to wait that long. I'm trying not to think of that though. I can be 143lbs by the end of May, so I'm focusing on that goal first. I hope I can reach that goal!

Day 11

Exercise! Ugh! lol I did not feel well today. I keep feeling dizzy and out of breath and just blah. But I think I know why, it's that time of the month again. I am very irrated and frusterated. I thought exercise was suppossed to help that!? I did my Pilates anyway and am glad I did. I did okay while doing them, and now feel like crap again. Since I did do my exercises, I am not going to feel guilty about relaxing the rest of the day. My hubby's off tonight anyways, so I get to spend it with him :) I am putting myself on a temporary diet. Just to kick start my weight loss, and to get used to eating less. I don't have certain rules either. I am having cereal (the good for you kind), with 8oz orange juice, and 10oz instant coffee for breakfast. For lunch and dinner I am having a 6" sub from SubWay. I will snack if I get hungry in between and not feel guilty. I only put lettuce, cheese, tomatos and pepper on them. I bought 7 sandwhiches and froze them. But the lettuce is a little wilty, and parts of the bread got soggy when I deforsted it. I might have to go buy a few every few days so thier more fresh. I want to try and find out how long they would last in the fridge instead of freezing them, maybe they will be okay in the fridge instead, we'll see. Alright, so I am going to shower and relax.

Day 10

Today was another Pilates day. I am wanting to perfect the workout. I am a lot stronger and can do a lot of the ecercises better. I had no cramping of the muscles today! Yay! The one exercise I still have trouble with is the Teaser:


I have trouble holding the position, and when we lay down using just the stomach muscles, and then use the stomach muscles again to come back up, it hurts my back. I am going to keep them up and make my muscles stronger. Yesterday I took my measurments, which are;
Thighs= 27"
Hips= 42"
Waist= 33 3/4"
Bust= 39"
I am very un-porportioned, I am going to change this though!

Day 9

Wow, Pilates is really starting to feel good, I love it!! My back was a little sore today. But I made sure I tightned my stomach muscles, and kept my hip bones pointed inward, and I did fine! You know, I could easily use my back as a excuse NOT to exercise, but I wont! Unless of course it really does start hurting. Then I'll call up my PT for advice (I can call him for advice even though my insurance forbids me to see him! lol). On one of the exercises I have to hold my leg in the air, and my left thigh always cramps up. I'm not sure why, I'm guessing because it's still weak and will get better when it gets stronger. I'm getting a little frusterated at not seeing any fat loss. But my sister is saying to keep up with it and don't give up, that in time the fat will start to come off as well. More muscles burn more calories. I was stupid and got on the scale. I weighed in at 173!!! Gaining while exercising!?!?! That really upset me. But I also keep thinking, muscle weighs more than fat, I know I'm building muscle, it's muscle weight, not fat weight. *sigh* In the end it'll be worth it, I'll see!!!

Day 8

Today's work out was even better than yesterdays! I can feel I am stronger and I could do the exercises better and my muscles don't quiver as much. I thought it would take a lot longer for me to get used to doing Pilates again. I am looking forward to doing areobics so I can start seeing more results.

Day 7

Today was a much better day. When I woke up to it raining outside, I instantly knew it would be a good day. I LOVE the rain! I did the Pilates with Denise Austin again. It was still a struggle at parts, but not nearly as hard as it was yesterday. It felt good today. My heart did elevate and I did get sweaty. But now after my shower, I feel great and I can feel my muscles were used! I feel stronger in some of the moves and know I can do this, and it will get easier. I also realized when I was doing my school work, that I can concentrate on it easier than I could before. I want to do the Pilates through Saturday the 31st, then I iwll get out my Denise Austin areobics workout and start with that. My back, so far, has put up no protesting. I am a happy camper!

Day 6

I'm going to be honest here, today really sucked! My daughter had a dentist appointment at 10:00am, which made us get up earlier than we have been. Luckily her teeth are healthy and she has NO cavities! Yay! But we are more tired today because of the early start. I sat on my computer, sucking on Hershey kisses, and saying, "I really don't want to" But, I did get up, and I did do my Pilates. My heart elivated, I was sweaty, and it was harder today than the last two days! My thighs, arches of my feet, and something, a bone or muscle? that connect from one thigh, around my lower half, to my other thigh, kept cramping up on me which made it even harder. I was unhappy the whole workout and thought about quitting because of how uncomfortable I was. Today was not a good day! But I did get it done. And I'll probably do it again tomorrow. I want to stick with it as long as my back allows me, and so far it has. The Hershey kisses was a really bad move, I feel my blood sugar crashing even more as I type this and am in need of something. I better go snatch something to eat, and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

Day 5

Ah, day number 2 of pilates! My stomach mucsles are sore, my thigh muscles are sore, so are my arms, and I have a twinge of pain in my back! The sore muscles do feel good though! I did pilates again, but because of my sore back I couldn't do it as well as yesterday. But I got through it! I feel great too! I took 2 Advil pm's last night and slept really well. My husband said I smacked him in the face once! LOL (sorry hubby!) About a month ago I had a pair of jammies that I could get on, but they were tight. Last night I put on those same jammies and they fit a little loosely!! I also noticed my muscles have pulled my tummy in a bit. I was telling my hubby how I can feel my muscles getting stronger and he said, "yeah, it looks like someone let the air out of your stomach, like letting the air out of a tire" then he pushed on my tummy and made the sound of air escaping!!! I was like, "really!?!?!?!" That is the one physical change I have noticed in my body. I can also feel my muscles getting tighter when I have my leg up on something and I push on the muscles to feel them. WOO HOO!!! I am also going to start motifying my diet. Looking into lower calorie foods and switching to sub sandwhiches for lunch instead of frozen meals. I am so excited and hope to wear shorts this summer without worrying about what my legs look like!! 8^D

Day 4

Today was a hard day to get my exersises in. My family and I went to the movies and saw Hotel For Dogs. Of course we had fattening snacks, so that gave me more motivation, so I could burn some of it off. I did pilates today, for the first time in a few years. Let me say, it was really challengeing. I fell over a few times, and I couldn't complete one push up! I remember when it was easy for me! I know one day it will be easy again. My Yoga and Pilates work outs are from Denise Austin. I love that lady! (although I shout at her while I'm working out! lol, I love her for pushing me and giving me motivation) My arms feel a little wobbly now. My outer thigh muscles cramped up while doing leg exersises. But I pushed through it and completed the whole work out, about 23min. I hope my back doesn't hurt me in the morning, I feel a little throbbing. I am still haivng trouble sleeping. I ended up taking 1 Tylonel PM, and it worked pretty good. But I needed more and the store was out, so I got Advil PM. I had trouble falling asleep and didn't get to sleep until after 1:30am, but I did sleep the rest of the night. Tomorrow I will try the Pilates again if my back isn't hurting. If it is, I'll do Yoga (again). Happy Exersising!

Day 3

Today was a busy day for me. I did do my yoga, and love how it feels now! I am anxiously wanting to try the pilates, but am afraid my back isn't up to the challenge yet. For some reason though, after I did the yoga, my stomach/esophagus felt like it was filled with thick oatmeal. I wasn't hungry most of the day. I only had some cereal in the morning until dinner. I also felt a little dizzy when doing the yoga, I don't think I ate enough beofre I jumped into it. Tomorrow I will have a bit more. And since tomorrow is Sunday, I am having my rest day. Even though it's my shopping day and I usually run around some stores all day, so it's not a total loss. I think I will try the pilates, gently, on Monday. See you then!

Day 2

Day number 2. I did yoga today. I have been doing yoga from the start, to be gentle on my spine. January 8th was my first day of yoga-sising. I am giving myself Sundays off to rest my spine and give it a chance to heal. Once my back isn't hurting anymore, I'll try for 7 days a week. When the weather gets warmer, I'll start up my walks again. Even though "I" can warm up, my 18mnth old son will not, and he's freezing half way through our walk. I wont subject him to that anymore. I am having trouble sleeping, even though I feel tired. I laid awake until after 2:30am last night, the kids got me up at 9:30am. 7hrs is okay, but not enough for me. I'm going to try one half of a Tylonel PM tonight. They usually work, but make me feel gross the next day, so half sounds good. I already feel a lot stronger, but I also noticed my blood sugar is dropping more than usual. I'm planning to talk to my Dr, when I have the money, so who knows when that'll be. Until then, I'm just trying to eat smaller meals, and healthier without messing with my blood sugar. Fruit doesn't work, so I'm stearing towards cheeses, wheat crackers, PB, and fruit with nuts for snacks. Here's one for today!

Day 1

Well, here I am! This blog was inspired by my friend Melissa and her blog. She started a New Years resolution of 365 days of exersise. I, in turn, decided to start up my long forgotton New Years resolution to loose wieght and get healthy. She has inspired me, and I am grateful for her. I have two stones thrown against me. 1) I have a messed up spine, PT needed, too bad my new insruance has a pre-existing condition rule >:( . 2) I have hypoglycemia which I found out in my early teens, because I was passing out for no apparent reason. I have yet to figure out how to loose weight with this disease. I have to eat more than a normal person would to keep my blood sugar stable. If I "diet" it makes me sick. So I thought, my first step is to exersize more. I have a 5yr old and a 18month old. Exersizing is hard to fit in when your running aorund all day just because your a mother. I also have SAD. This can also affect my weight because when I'm feeling anxious, which is a lot, I eat. Most people probably precieve me very differently than my true self because of my SAD. I hope that by writing down my daily tasks and thoughts, I can make a start towards a better, more healthy me!